All I want for Christmas is you my sweet Poppy. It’s coming up to our third Christmas without you and it still just as painful. Christmas can be tough when you’ve lost a baby or child. Add into that the whole Parenting After Loss and it’s a whole new bittersweet winter emotionalland. When Poppy died... Continue Reading →
Dear Poppy – Advent To Remember
Dear Poppy So it's December and it’s now the run up to Christmas. A time of year that I love and also get so sad during. 2 years ago this was meant to be our first Christmas with you. Instead we were sat missing you, just wanting you for Christmas. We decorated your grave and... Continue Reading →
Dear Poppy -Your 2nd Birthday
Dear Poppy This week you turned 2 and I can’t believe it’s been 2 years since we finally got to meet you and then 3 days later had to say goodbye to you. I can’t believe these 2 years have flown by so quickly. The last few days it’s really hit me. All the emotion... Continue Reading →
Dear Poppy – Forever & Always
Dear Poppy Daddy will think of always and love you forever. I will love you forever and always sweetheart. I’m laying here in bed It’s getting late and You are supposed to be here Cuddled up in bed with us I’d enjoy that cuddle a little longer Until I carried you to your bed But... Continue Reading →
Life On The Neo-Natel Unit
Living on a neo-neonatal unit while Poppy fought for her life was hard. Surrounded by premature babies who were slowly getting better, while we waited for any signs or news that Poppy would be ok. A tough place to be but also a safe place to be. Isolated in the hospital, away from the maternity... Continue Reading →
Sleepless Nights Of Broken & Restless Dreams
Every so often I’ll have a sleepless night. Not because I just can’t sleep or that Reuben is keeping me awake. I’m just laying there thinking about all the broken dreams and hopes I have for Poppy. Wishing for her to be here with us and not looking down at us from the stars. Just... Continue Reading →
Dear Poppy – I Need You So Much Closer
Dear Poppy It feels like you are further away then you’ve been before. Days can go by and I feel you with me, watching over me. I feel close to you. Then days come and the distance between us seems so much bigger than before. Life is so much different this year compared to last... Continue Reading →
Dear Poppy – I Miss You
Dear Poppy I miss you. Plain and simple. How has it almost been 2 years since we had to say goodbye. So much has happened and so much should have happened. Poppy I wish you were here so much, Daddy misses you every second. I miss your little hands. I miss putting my finger in... Continue Reading →
Running For Poppy: Helping My Grief
After Poppy died I always wanted to do something for charity to raise money in her name to give her a legacy to be proud of. I ended up deciding to run. Little did I know how much it would help me with my grieving for Poppy. Along with talking to Emily, running just really... Continue Reading →