So it’s December and it’s now the run up to Christmas. A time of year that I love and also get so sad during. 2 years ago this was meant to be our first Christmas with you. Instead we were sat missing you, just wanting you for Christmas.
We decorated your grave and made it as Christmassy as we could. It was still your first Christmas. We would never forget that and we will never forget you at Christmas. You will never be far from our thoughts and you are always in our hearts.
2 years later I still just want you for Christmas. Having your baby bro here is amazing. He makes the darkest days brighter. Together with him and Mummy we have so many plans to honour and remember you this Christmas.
This year we are taking part in the #Adventtoremember and doing #adventforpoppy. So everyday until Christmas we will do something for you, do something to include you, do something you and Reuben can be close to each other and we will do things in your memory to help other families who have also suffered baby loss.
You are always going to be at the heart of everything we do as a family. You will always be part of our family. We will always include you in everything we do.
When I see sparkling Christmas lights it makes me think of you shinning down on us so bright. You are my Poppy Star, the brightest star of all.
I can’t wait to do all the things we have planned for you. It’s already started with us putting up and decorating the Christmas tree. Covered in decorations and lots of ones that we bought for you. Matching ones for you and Reuben. Ones that are just for you and of course we have our fairy on top. That’s you, our fairy, our Poppy Star on top of the tree shining down on us.
I’d give anything to be able to have you back with us this Christmas. It breaks my heart that we have to spend another Christmas missing you. We will do things for you this Christmas and we will keep doing them for you.
Merry Christmas baby girl. Always in my thoughts and forever in my heart.
Love Daddy xxxx