Dear Poppy – On The Eve Of Father’s Day

Dear Poppy

How is it coming up to my second Father’s Day without you here with us. I can’t believe it’s been a year since the last one. I really don’t know how I’ve been able to make it between the two without you here.

As it comes up fast I’m sat here in bed wondering what you’d be like now. Getting closer to 2 years old. Would you be talking, would you be sleeping through the night, would you be sneaking around with Mummy making a macaroni card for me.

A lot has happened since the last one, you’re brother is here safe. I still can’t thank you enough for bringing him safely into the world. I just wish you were here to see him. He’s such a happy Chappy, always laughing and making us giggle. I know you too would be such great friends. You are the best big sister any brother could want.

I’ve not had to go into card shops this year yet. That was the hardest part of last year. Having to go in and see all the cards from daughter’s to Daddy’s. I felt such a fraud last year even though I’m your Daddy I felt like I shouldn’t be celebrating the day.

Most of all I just wanted you there with us and I still do. Not a minute goes by that I don’t think of you. Not a second goes by that I don’t think back to how it felt to hold you in my arms.

You are the best daughter any Daddy could wish for. You are so brave, strong and wise beyond your age. I know you are somewhere watching over us with Georgie Doggy. I can’t wait to see you again there one day.

You are the brightest star in my sky. The driving force in my life. I want to make you proud of your Daddy. I want to be able to hold you in my arms and never let you go.

I miss you little one, so very much.

Always in my thoughts, forever in my heart.

Love Daddy xxxx

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  1. Such an honest and relatable piece. I am approaching my first fathers day since we lost our son Henry in March, and the thought of it is terrifying, it’s like someone is holding you over the edge of a cliff by your feet. Knowing that other fathers have felt similar and survived the day year after year is a comfort, so thank you for sharing.

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